I wish that for once......She will stop complaining about whatever I do........
I only wish for my father.........now I can not cry to anyone already......but I somehow feel that I could cry on her......thought it go against common sense.......
Damm.........She stopped me......from going with Zoan and Grace to Riverlife Church......
Haiz.......nevermind next week I do my homework as Kerxi and them will help me so I should be able to go.........

I just realised........that until so far.......I only have a few friends that really care.......
In primary school I only have Felicia,Ashley and Yong Yu...........Well........
In ESSS I found out......I have Kerxi,Grace,Siew Hwee and other girls.......
Non of the boys actually cares about me..........Guess the gay thing got stuck in their brain.....
I wonder does she ever think that I take her as a subsitute for Rewyin,Martin,Jeremy Yap,Alex and Shi Quan???Anyway she better not cause it is not true...........

YAY!!! today I got.......finally........can play my flute liao!!!!It turns out that my flute has problems!!!!So today..I CHANGED MY FLUTE TO FLUTE FOUR!!!!WOOT!!!!!

...She.....is now banning me from using the computer.....I hate her.......disturb me when I pqing and blogging.......good thing I can control myself from activating my insane instince.......to fight with her........must be from not fighting with kerxi this days and the lecture from Reyin on tuesday.........

Today.......everything when almost well....except Kerxi,Grace and Siew Hwee begin bearing their fangs at me........damm I am so going to become a prisoner at their hands next week.....especially Kerxi....who baned me from going to Lan........althought I could just go and she can't stop me.....But sort of a instince to listen to her........haiz.......cannot be I like her right???Must be because of the wallet,mommy and my love to hang around with her.........

YAY!!! Today I met the counseller again for the second time........
She was SOOOOOOO nice sia.......talk to me so much.....
Then she talk about my class seating and CCA........
If everything goes alright(which I hope so....)
I can change my CCA and my steaing arrangment!!!
WOOOHOOO!!!I love counselling........

WTF!!! WTF!!!! I MISSED IT!!! I MISSED IT!!!
That event should be the best event that will happen in the whole of the 21st century!!!
And yet I missed it BEACUSE OF MOTHER !@$$#%&^%*&&^* DOTA!!!!@!!@!!@!!!
........Well........next time I should pay more ATTENDTION TO THE MSN SCREEN!!!
I LOOK AT IT"LIVE ON EARTH" AND THOUGHT IT WAS SOME SCIENCE THINGY!!!!!!!!
WTF SIA...............

I finally found out something that will scare the @%$#&^%*&^* out of me even with people.....
Well.....I really want to stop that....stop it sia....but they are not even related to me....
Even Zoan also never tried to stop them.....How could I stop them.....take knifes?
But really people should learn to live more peacefully together.........
And avoid this kind of fight.......

This song is called Pride by High and Mighty Colour.......


Hakanaku chitta hikari ga
Bokura wo ima yobi samasu
Kanashimi wa oto wo tate
Kieru ano basho kara

Ikuzo wake up michi naru mirai he
Sa mukau kaze ni hane hirogete
It's a futatsu to nai chikara umidashi tobi tatsu
Fuan PURASU PRIDE mune ni fly

Samayou sadame kasuka ni egao furete
Dakiau kono shunkan

Fukaku aisuru yuuki to kibou tsuyoku
Kanjiru kono kioku ga
Karamiau kokoro to KOKORO wo tsunaide
Ugoki dashiteru

Kagayaku hikari ga terashi
Bokura wo ima yobi okosu
Tachiagari oto wo tate
Kizamu ano basho kara

Kesenai kizu ato kodoku to fuan yurete
Sonzai kara toozakaru
Soshite furueru senaka ni tsume wo tatete
Tashikameteru

Fukai zetsubou ga osou
Yami ni shizunda yoru demo
Inori sae todoku nara
Towa ni shinji tsuzuke yo

Tashika na hokori wo mune ni
Bokura wa michibikareteku
Hane hiroge tobitatou
Tsuyoku egaita sora

Kagayaku hikari ga terashi
Bokura wo ima yobi okosu
Hibikiau oto wo tate
Kizamu kono basho kara
Towa ni shinji tsuzukete

Naki tsukareta jibun wo hanate
nori wa ima tsuujiru sa dakara
Ugokidashita mirai he to susume
Michi wa hateshi naku tsuzuku mada mada
Nozomu nara te ni ireroAzayaka ni kagayaite iro


Now the english lyrics.......

The light, scattering after such a short time,awakens us
Our sadness disappears noisily from that place

Here we go, wake up to go to the future that’s meant for us
Come on, spread your wings in the stormy winds
It’s a power like no other, let’s create that and take flight
Anxiety plus pride, fly in your heart

The moment we embrace and I’m touched by your weak smile
Destined to wander
I can feel this memory of the courage and faith of loving someone deeply
And it entwines our hearts and makes them come alive
A bright light shines and awakens us
It gets up noisily and imprints itself in that place

Inerasable scars, shaking in fear and loneliness
Shrinking away from existence
And I dig my nails into my shaking back
To check that it’s real
Thick despair attacks; even on nights when I’m plunged into darkness
If only my prayer is heard, I’ll believe forever

The sure pride in our hearts guides us
Spread our wings and fly into the sky you pictured so vividly
A bright light shines and awakens us
It gets up noisily and imprints itself in that place
I’ll believe forever

Let go of the you who is exhausted from weeping
Your prayer has been heard
Move on to the future
The road carries on with no end
If you want it, take it
Shine bright

namida de nijinda kono sora [1] wo miageru tabi
hakanai aosa ga mune wo shimedzuketeku

sadame [2] nara kanashimi no hate made
tatakaitsudzuketa hibi wo ato ni

Life Goes On moeagaru
inochi ga aru kagiri
shinjitsu no jibun sae miushinaisou soredemo
Life Goes On mamoritakute
kokoro wa kudakarete
hontou no kanashimi wo shitta hitomi wa
ai ni afurete

fuyu ni saku hana ga kasumu keshiki irodoru
"tsuyosa wa yasashisa" sou utaikaketeru

nan no tame dare no tame ni kimi wa
tatakaitsudzukeru no darou ima

Life Goes On umarekawari
itsushika deaeru nara
kore ijou mou nido to ushinaitaku wa nai demo
Life Goes On kono toki [3] ni
umaretekita kagiri
kono ude de kono mune de ima uketomeyou
ai wo shinjite

[4] I can feel your heart in motion, deep down in your mind and passion.
Life goes on and on, we love each other in the sadness of time.

Life Goes On moeagaru
inochi ga aru kagiri
itsu no hi ka mou ichidou hikari wo wakachiaitai
Life Goes On mamoritakute
inori wo sora ni hasete
hontou no kanashimi wo shitta hitomi wa
ai ni afurete....


Now for the English one........


Every time I look up into the tear-filled sky,
A fickle wave of blue binds my chest.

If it's destiny, I will leave behind the days
That I've fought till the end of sorrow.

Life Goes On, passionately.
As long as I am alive,
Even if I were to lose sight of my real self,
Life Goes On, I want to protect it.
My heart was shattered,
And in these eyes that have seen true sorrow,
Love is overflowing.

The flowers that bloom in winter paints a misty landscape.
"Strength is tenderness" I sang.

For what and for who
Do you continue to fight for now?

Life Goes On, be reborn.
If we unknowing meet again,
I don't want to lose you a second time,but
Life Goes On. In this era,
As long as I am given life,
I catch it with these arms and this chest.
Believe in love.

I can feel your heart in motion, deep down in your mind and passion.
Life goes on and on, we love each other in the sadness of time.

Life Goes On, passionately.
As long as I am alive,
I want to share this light with you again someday.
Life Goes On, I want to protect it.
Send your prayers towards the sky.
In these eyes that have seen true sorrow,
Love is overflowing.

Thank you for viewing.....

yomigaere

sora to daichi ga
kousa shite iru
ima tatazunde
ru kono sekai deinochi ga umare mata shizundeku
kurikaesareru itonami no naka

konna monto yogitta toki
yume wa chikara o nakusu
mou ichido umareyou
kono basho de

seigi no sono oku de yume ga ikizuite iru
kasanaru chikara o shinjite
seigi no sono oku ni yami ga hisonde iru
mi kiwamero subete o
furi ageta yuuki wa kirisaku tame janai
hiki au kizuna de
yobi samase
azayaka ni

kizutsuite yuki ba o nakushi
samayotte iru sono tamashii o
iyasu chikara wa, kokoro no oku de
shizuka ni ko douki o kizande iru

moteru chikara subete butsuke
namida o nagaresu no nara
erabubeki michi wa
kimi o matteru

mi shimatta ima to toori sugita kako no
akama de akirameru yori mo
ima me o sora sazu ni koko kara hajimeyou
mi kiwamero ashita o
dare ka ni misetsukeru yuuki wa nugi sutete
sugao ni modorou
yobi samase
azayaka ni

seigi no sono oku de yume ga ikizuite iru
kasanaru chikara o shinjite
seigi no sono oku ni yami ga hisonde iru
mi kiwamero subete o
buri ageta yuuki wa kiri saku tame janai
hiki au kizuna de
yobi samase
azayaka ni

let there be light
revive a soul ...

Ok sorry can't find the english one.....

yasashii sono yubi ga, owari ni fureru toki
ima dake, kimi dake, shinjitemo iin darou

daremo ga kuzureteku, negai wo motomesugite
jibun ga ochite yuku, basho wo sagashiteru

kizutsukete yureru shika dekinai, zawameku omoi ga, bokura no shinjitsu nara

kowareau kara, ugokenai
sabishii hane kasanete
deau hikari no nai jidai no
mabushisa wo misete

kanashii me no mama de, kuchitsukete shimau tabi
motto zutto, motto sotto, mamoreru kigashita

kokoro shika dakishimeru mono no nai, kodoku no tochuu de, miushinau sekai ga aru

kawareru koto ga, kowaku naru
fukai kodou no saki ni
kawasu honoo ni, egakareta
eien ga mieru

kowareau kara, ugokenai
sabishii hane kasanete
deau hikari no nai jidai no
mabushisa dake

kawareru chikara, osorenai
fukai kodou no saki ni
kawasu honoo yo, egakareta
unmei ni todoke




Now English...

When those soft fingers reach in the end,
Only now, only you, won't that be all you can believe in?

Everyone is breaking down, searching too long for a wish
You�re looking for a place where you can land

Wounded, unable to stop shaking
If these murmuring feelings are indeed our reality�

We break each other down till we can't even move
Our solitary wings overlapped,
We've not encountered the light;
Reveal the glare this age gives off

With eyes filled with sadness, with each kiss
Growing greater, growing softer, I felt I'd be protected

A heart without even one thing to hold on to
En route to solitude, there is a world losing sight

Things that can change grow frightening
In the deep pulsation that lies ahead
Painted in the exchanged flames, I can see eternity

We break each other down till we can't even move
Our solitary wings overlapped,
We've not encountered the light,
Only the glare this age gives off

I don't fear the power to change
In the deep pulsation that lies ahead
Painted in the exchanged flames
Carry out your destiny

Thanks for viewing.....